We had our first general rehearsal this morning.  For the dinner performance next Friday.  I have a solo number called the Peacock Dance. 

I have been dancing this particular dance for almost 20 years.  Add to that other shows: ballet, flamenco, modern and Chinese dances.  I have been performing onstage on and off for more than 30 years.  I should be comfortable with this. 

But no, as I waited for my turn this morning, I could hear my heart thumping loudly.  My hands were cool and I had to control slight tremors in my hand.  Some butterflies in the tummy.  And this wasn’t even the real dress rehearsal.  Just the blocking and the order and checking the flow of the show.

O said he read somewhere that the minute you lose the jitters before a particular dance, is the time when you retire that dance.  It simply means that it has become rote and loses its passion.  That’s a nice explanation.

Feels Good to Stretch

I’ve been overeating ever since I came home from the motorcycle trip.  I just felt so hungry after several days of fast food and irregular mealtimes.  Sometimes lunch at 11, sometimes past 12.  Dinner normally at 8 or 9 when we have ours at 6pm at home.

I didn’t like the full feeling last night.  Especially when O and I were starting to get “cozy”.  It’s not a nice feeling to rock on a full tummy.  There’s a kind of squishy feeling in your tummy that just melts the horniness away.

So tonight after several months of no workout, I looked for my New York City Ballet dvd.  Whew.  Just 30 minutes and I feel much lighter.  And I farted a lot too.  heeee.  All the bad air is going out.

I feel so much better now.  O passed by and pinched the butt as I was doing the tendus.  A tendu is when you point a foot forward and then back to a feet out position (first position).  Firm butt, he says.  Ahh, that is such a nice compliment.